Carrying my soul

At this point, I'm lost.

 I have always planned everything in my life, I think about my future a lot. Saved my money, continue doing business for the sake of savings and future. But damn it, life at the age of 20 is just the beginning. Sometimes I wish that I'm a cat, eat-sleep-repeat.

 Today, it has been almost 2 months since I started my internship. It was amazing, getting to know more about the industry, learning new things etc. Alhamdulillah, I'm doing very well. In reality, working is not as what we (teenagers) imagine. Its a tough shit to deal with everyday. I used to be excited, well who doesn't right?? getting your first salary, no lectures, no writing notes, no need to study and other stuff. It was all nice to see, until you start working. 

I had to carry my soul and keep going.

 I have never felt this strange feeling. I felt lost for a moment, my vision for the future life is getting blurrrrr. I don't really know what I'm doing. I don't think I have the passion for working 6 days a week man.. everyday my life starts at 5;30 am and get home at 7 pm. How do people cope with this???? How does my father can cope with this industry for almost 30 years?! everyday, doing the same thing, repeat the next day, repeat repeat repeat and repeat. 

That's all I have to say for now, goodbye!!